It's SO hard

((thats what she said))

Ok , so heres the thing....

I know I am different.

My whole life is different, how can I stay the same?

Its been over a year since I told Jared I wanted a divorce.

I know no one understands.

I don't care.

I don't know how to MAKE anyone understand.

But really...you dont need to understand.

Your just either with me or your against me.
and its easy for me to see where you fall.

I dont ask for anything.

I dont expect anything.

Things will get better...it will take time.

I hope.

I had no idea what it would be like to walk away.

I had no idea I would lose so much.

Think of your life, and everything YOU like about YOUR life...and everything that makes YOU happy. Now imagine your life without ANY of that.

And that...is me.

But it wont be forever.

I apologize if its hard for YOU to watch.

I am sorry if its taking me too long to pick up the pieces

of my heart. and my life.

I'm trying.

and its the best I can do today.